Day Two
Love is kind.
Today along with trying to not say anything negitive, they dare also asked me to do something nice for my spouse.
It wasnt a real big thing, but at dinner time i didnt make him get up and get it. I asked him what he wanted for the choice of pizza and i got it for him.
What i am learning out of this dare so far, is exactly what i want to be learning... how to be a better wife. i know i am a good wife, but i want to be better. i want ben to look at me and say- i want what you have. i pray every night for him. i pray that he finds the Lord like i have. and to fully and 110 percent beleives in it.. there is nothing more that i want to have is a god centered marriage. i want my husband to be the one that say lets go to church, lets pray, lets have some bible study time as a married couple. i want that sooooo badly, and that is my biggest and utter most prayer, and i hope by doing this- he looks over and he sees the change in me.
i feel like i am going on a journey, but i am going alone. i feel like i am growing but as i am growing i look at us and we are stuck. and i am not talking fincially or whatever, i am talking about inner feeling. I do the whole AA thing and i do that alone- there not much i can talk to him about that, cause well its anyomous and you cant- than with god and church its like i am doing that alone too. =/
but this dare so far is teach me patient and kindess. and as long as i live my life through God and pray about it- and in bens time he hopefully will truely see the wonderfullness and the powerfulness of our God.